AITA for using the fact that I have a degenerative eye condition that will make me randomly go blind as a reason to ask my SO with body dysmprohic disorder to let me see them naked more often?
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The hard part is that they've stated that the reason they don't offer to get me off when they're not up to sex is because I don't ask enough, but I don't ask enough because if they're not feeling well enough for sex then it seems shitty of me to ask for personal gratification at all.
But it's really hard to gauge when they're not feeling well enough to do anything, and when they're well enough to do it
Not that me cumming is directly relational to me seeing them naked, but it speaks to my hesitation to ask. Because I do ask to see, but they seem to intentionally conflate me asking to see with me asking for sex, even though I've explained that when I ask to see I'm literally asking to see them naked.
I have asked for them to think of a way I can ask for personal gratification without seeming callous to their feelings, but like most requests of this nature it falls on deaf ears. Probably because they're demisexual and don't really understand a cis gendered straight male on testosterone's sex drive.
Excuses are never useful as a replacement for good communication.
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Excuses are never useful as a replacement for good communication.
Of course not, but when good communication is stifled by a field of eggshells, you do what you can.
Our communication on the subject is pretty good, but that alone doesn't solve the issue. It's hard to see a way to open that line of communication without them being offended
The hard part is communicating my needs without trampling on their feelings, because at a certain point the onus shifts off of me and I don't want my SO to have that pressure
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Of course not, but when good communication is stifled by a field of eggshells, you do what you can.
Our communication on the subject is pretty good, but that alone doesn't solve the issue. It's hard to see a way to open that line of communication without them being offended
The hard part is communicating my needs without trampling on their feelings, because at a certain point the onus shifts off of me and I don't want my SO to have that pressure
communicating [...] without trampling on their feelings
That's right. There are better things that can be done with feelings.
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communicating [...] without trampling on their feelings
That's right. There are better things that can be done with feelings.
Such as?
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Yes, this is a real Am I The Asshole, not one where the answer is super obvious and the user is just looking to have their ego stroked.
My SO has BDD and genuinely thinks they look ugly naked. I think they're 1000% incorrect and that they're the sexiest human alive, and I would die happy if I could see them naked all the time.
I was diagnosed with a condition called Cone Rod Dystrophy which basically means I'll lose color vision, then all vision. The timeline is anywhere from next week to 50 years from now.
I want to see them naked every chance I can get so I can cement it in my head before I go blind, but I feel gross for posing that as a reason to let me see them naked.
Like, in the 10 years we've been together I've never even asked them for a hand job if they didn't feel up to sex because I didn't want to seem like a callous asshole, so this would be a big ask from me.
To add in complications, they're also on the spectrum. Not a criticism since I'm most likely on it too.
Important that there shouldn't be any coercion yada yada but as a BDD sufferer my Owner pushing me (consensually) to be naked more often has helped me develop a better body image and allowed me to feel desirable
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Important that there shouldn't be any coercion yada yada but as a BDD sufferer my Owner pushing me (consensually) to be naked more often has helped me develop a better body image and allowed me to feel desirable
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Yes, this is a real Am I The Asshole, not one where the answer is super obvious and the user is just looking to have their ego stroked.
My SO has BDD and genuinely thinks they look ugly naked. I think they're 1000% incorrect and that they're the sexiest human alive, and I would die happy if I could see them naked all the time.
I was diagnosed with a condition called Cone Rod Dystrophy which basically means I'll lose color vision, then all vision. The timeline is anywhere from next week to 50 years from now.
I want to see them naked every chance I can get so I can cement it in my head before I go blind, but I feel gross for posing that as a reason to let me see them naked.
Like, in the 10 years we've been together I've never even asked them for a hand job if they didn't feel up to sex because I didn't want to seem like a callous asshole, so this would be a big ask from me.
To add in complications, they're also on the spectrum. Not a criticism since I'm most likely on it too.
Just tossing on: 'If I have to go blind I want to make your naked body the vision I take with me into the darkness' sounds like a hell of a compliment, and maybe the basis for a gothic love song/novella.
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I really appreciate your answer
But the fact that I've never pushed anything is actually part of the issue. I've been happy to let my SO go at their own pace, but by their own admission it's why I don't get the sexual gratification I'd enjoy. Like, when we first started dating they were the ones pushing me to engage in penetrative sex while I wanted to hold off.
Although that backfired on me because my penis doesn't work.
Asking once is not pushing. I have C-PTSD and because to that issues with self worth and fears of abandonment. I still get that my spouse and I need to communicate our needs and thoughts. So I get that it's hard and I know that these conversations can be painful. It's still totally possible and necessary to talk about this but the amount of excuses you come up with in this thread make it seem like the issue is more on your than on your SOs side since you seem to have hell of a problem to communicate your needs without feeling bad for it (no offense intended, the struggle is real!).
Having needs is normal, that they sometimes conflict with the comfort zone with your SO is also normal. If you feel like you can't talk to them, write a letter, let them read it in peace and answer you in their preferred way.
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I really appreciate your answer
But the fact that I've never pushed anything is actually part of the issue. I've been happy to let my SO go at their own pace, but by their own admission it's why I don't get the sexual gratification I'd enjoy. Like, when we first started dating they were the ones pushing me to engage in penetrative sex while I wanted to hold off.
Although that backfired on me because my penis doesn't work.
I also identify as demi, and In day to day life when stuff needs to get done sex just never occurs to me. I think when your partner says ask, they genuinely mean it. It's possible for a demi or ace to just forget sex exists entirely for a while.
I also have been in the position where when my partner asked I felt pressured. Maybe talk about making space for intimacy, and designate a time where you focus your attentions solely on each other. Time where you can sit together and cuddle and talk, not putting any pressure or expectations on having sex but instead enjoying each other's company. Physical touch should be a part of it, but also be genuinely ok with that whether it escalates or not.
Recreate that "date night" feeling, just at home in any hour or half-hour window of time you might have, as long as you can put life aside for a little.
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Yes, this is a real Am I The Asshole, not one where the answer is super obvious and the user is just looking to have their ego stroked.
My SO has BDD and genuinely thinks they look ugly naked. I think they're 1000% incorrect and that they're the sexiest human alive, and I would die happy if I could see them naked all the time.
I was diagnosed with a condition called Cone Rod Dystrophy which basically means I'll lose color vision, then all vision. The timeline is anywhere from next week to 50 years from now.
I want to see them naked every chance I can get so I can cement it in my head before I go blind, but I feel gross for posing that as a reason to let me see them naked.
Like, in the 10 years we've been together I've never even asked them for a hand job if they didn't feel up to sex because I didn't want to seem like a callous asshole, so this would be a big ask from me.
To add in complications, they're also on the spectrum. Not a criticism since I'm most likely on it too.
So, suppose your partner uses her BDD to pressure you into not looking at her naked, saying she'll be okay being naked around you once you lose your sight. How would that make you feel?
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Yes, this is a real Am I The Asshole, not one where the answer is super obvious and the user is just looking to have their ego stroked.
My SO has BDD and genuinely thinks they look ugly naked. I think they're 1000% incorrect and that they're the sexiest human alive, and I would die happy if I could see them naked all the time.
I was diagnosed with a condition called Cone Rod Dystrophy which basically means I'll lose color vision, then all vision. The timeline is anywhere from next week to 50 years from now.
I want to see them naked every chance I can get so I can cement it in my head before I go blind, but I feel gross for posing that as a reason to let me see them naked.
Like, in the 10 years we've been together I've never even asked them for a hand job if they didn't feel up to sex because I didn't want to seem like a callous asshole, so this would be a big ask from me.
To add in complications, they're also on the spectrum. Not a criticism since I'm most likely on it too.
This is really difficult as your impending doom feelings are somewhat clouding your natural inclinations.
However, it seems like you have not expressed your desires, wishes and reasoning openly and transparently, which would be a good start.
I would say one-sided gratification is not inherently bad if there is trust, safety, an easy out and frequent check-ins, but those need constant attention.
I would echo other commenters saying ultimately you’ll have to feel your way.
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Perfect answer.
coercion is not.
I emphasize this detail with several exclamation marks!!!
Still depends on the relationship, person, and intent. I can't speak for others. I may react initially negatively, but I am open to coercion.
Crime is really about intent more than any other factor. Manipulation and coercion can be done with positive and negative intent. If a person manipulates me at a clever level with the best of intentions, I have no problem with it, but again, I only speak for myself.
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Yes, this is a real Am I The Asshole, not one where the answer is super obvious and the user is just looking to have their ego stroked.
My SO has BDD and genuinely thinks they look ugly naked. I think they're 1000% incorrect and that they're the sexiest human alive, and I would die happy if I could see them naked all the time.
I was diagnosed with a condition called Cone Rod Dystrophy which basically means I'll lose color vision, then all vision. The timeline is anywhere from next week to 50 years from now.
I want to see them naked every chance I can get so I can cement it in my head before I go blind, but I feel gross for posing that as a reason to let me see them naked.
Like, in the 10 years we've been together I've never even asked them for a hand job if they didn't feel up to sex because I didn't want to seem like a callous asshole, so this would be a big ask from me.
To add in complications, they're also on the spectrum. Not a criticism since I'm most likely on it too.
Have you attempted showering them with barely contained lust? Like looney tune style 'awooga' stuff?
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Yes, this is a real Am I The Asshole, not one where the answer is super obvious and the user is just looking to have their ego stroked.
My SO has BDD and genuinely thinks they look ugly naked. I think they're 1000% incorrect and that they're the sexiest human alive, and I would die happy if I could see them naked all the time.
I was diagnosed with a condition called Cone Rod Dystrophy which basically means I'll lose color vision, then all vision. The timeline is anywhere from next week to 50 years from now.
I want to see them naked every chance I can get so I can cement it in my head before I go blind, but I feel gross for posing that as a reason to let me see them naked.
Like, in the 10 years we've been together I've never even asked them for a hand job if they didn't feel up to sex because I didn't want to seem like a callous asshole, so this would be a big ask from me.
To add in complications, they're also on the spectrum. Not a criticism since I'm most likely on it too.
One thing to keep in mind with body dysmorphia is that what you think about their body is unlikely to change how they feel about their body. Often times, dysmorphia doesn't stem from outside influences, and is an entirely internal struggle. Depending on what their dysmorphia is rooted in, showering them in praise may help them accept their body, or may compound their negative emotions ("I'm ugly and I'm dating an idiot").
You both have valid desires, but they're both at odds with each other. Honestly, I'd recommend a therapy session for the both of you. It would probably be beneficial to have a neutral third party involved in the conversation.
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Yes, this is a real Am I The Asshole, not one where the answer is super obvious and the user is just looking to have their ego stroked.
My SO has BDD and genuinely thinks they look ugly naked. I think they're 1000% incorrect and that they're the sexiest human alive, and I would die happy if I could see them naked all the time.
I was diagnosed with a condition called Cone Rod Dystrophy which basically means I'll lose color vision, then all vision. The timeline is anywhere from next week to 50 years from now.
I want to see them naked every chance I can get so I can cement it in my head before I go blind, but I feel gross for posing that as a reason to let me see them naked.
Like, in the 10 years we've been together I've never even asked them for a hand job if they didn't feel up to sex because I didn't want to seem like a callous asshole, so this would be a big ask from me.
To add in complications, they're also on the spectrum. Not a criticism since I'm most likely on it too.
Y'all been together 10y. Uncomfortable conversations are necessary sometimes. I think you're going to have to crack some of these eggshells. How you crack them is another thing. I think you gotta start with cracking your own shell about asking. Simply stating you're horny for example. Whether at that point she's down for sex, a bj, hj or you have to jerk it in the shower are all valid results of that statement that she has control over. If she says no piv sex but she'll give you a bj you kinda gotta take her word for it.
My now wife once said she'd give me a bj or sex anytime I asked and I said she underestimated how horny I was. I was right but it was a good week and now she'll say no if she's not feeling up to it. A short bit of discomfort, no harm done, longterm benefit where i can ask without coercion worries (usually) and she can respond without being afraid of hurting my feelings or giving me blue balls.
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Have you attempted showering them with barely contained lust? Like looney tune style 'awooga' stuff?
Sadly that avenue doesn't work on my partner. Still unhappy with body. in fact I get "your just so lustful my body condition is irrelevant". So it counter productive.
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Still depends on the relationship, person, and intent. I can't speak for others. I may react initially negatively, but I am open to coercion.
Crime is really about intent more than any other factor. Manipulation and coercion can be done with positive and negative intent. If a person manipulates me at a clever level with the best of intentions, I have no problem with it, but again, I only speak for myself.
I may react initially negatively, but I am open to coercion.
You are open to being convinced.
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Y'all been together 10y. Uncomfortable conversations are necessary sometimes. I think you're going to have to crack some of these eggshells. How you crack them is another thing. I think you gotta start with cracking your own shell about asking. Simply stating you're horny for example. Whether at that point she's down for sex, a bj, hj or you have to jerk it in the shower are all valid results of that statement that she has control over. If she says no piv sex but she'll give you a bj you kinda gotta take her word for it.
My now wife once said she'd give me a bj or sex anytime I asked and I said she underestimated how horny I was. I was right but it was a good week and now she'll say no if she's not feeling up to it. A short bit of discomfort, no harm done, longterm benefit where i can ask without coercion worries (usually) and she can respond without being afraid of hurting my feelings or giving me blue balls.
Where'd you get that "she" from?
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Yes, this is a real Am I The Asshole, not one where the answer is super obvious and the user is just looking to have their ego stroked.
My SO has BDD and genuinely thinks they look ugly naked. I think they're 1000% incorrect and that they're the sexiest human alive, and I would die happy if I could see them naked all the time.
I was diagnosed with a condition called Cone Rod Dystrophy which basically means I'll lose color vision, then all vision. The timeline is anywhere from next week to 50 years from now.
I want to see them naked every chance I can get so I can cement it in my head before I go blind, but I feel gross for posing that as a reason to let me see them naked.
Like, in the 10 years we've been together I've never even asked them for a hand job if they didn't feel up to sex because I didn't want to seem like a callous asshole, so this would be a big ask from me.
To add in complications, they're also on the spectrum. Not a criticism since I'm most likely on it too.
SO: has BDD, fears not being enough
You: "I'm going blind. The only thing I want to remember in this world is you"
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Have you attempted showering them with barely contained lust? Like looney tune style 'awooga' stuff?
Yeah, she asked me to stop because it made her more self conscious.
