how can I stop spiralling about my breakup?
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.I always suggest taking walks if the weather is nice. I recommend it to anyone. It's free, not time consuming, pretty much anyone can do it in some form.
Walking works because it's an action that doesn't require thought. You can take in your surroundings, and place the focus on that instead of yourself. It's the easiest way to get your mind off of something.
You can't just walk all the time, but if the pain comes up, just walk. Leave your phone if you can, too.
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How are you fighting the urges to text them? Do u mind me asking how you guys split?
Ugh good question. In the beginning I still texted her. I didn't want to but I was unable to resist the urge. I always challenged myself to not text her for as long as I could, usually a few days. About a month later I finally stopped to when she told me it'd be better for the both of us. And I already knew that she was right. To this day, I never texted her again even though the urge is still very present sometimes. Every time I want to, I just think about that it won't do nothing. I don't want to be together with a person who doesn't love me.
I did recently text her parents again though.
I basically lived with her family and I miss them too, a lot. Just thanked them for everything and kinda said goodbye. At least until I get over this, then we (me and her dad) might meet again since we share a hobby that we want to do together.We split because, long story short, she discovered that she doesn't love me anymore. No specific reason. At least she couldn't tell me one. She didn't want me to be completely gone, she wanted to be normal friends but not in a relationship. I told her that this is impossible for me, it would destroy me even more, seeing someone I love who doesn't love me back.
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Ugh good question. In the beginning I still texted her. I didn't want to but I was unable to resist the urge. I always challenged myself to not text her for as long as I could, usually a few days. About a month later I finally stopped to when she told me it'd be better for the both of us. And I already knew that she was right. To this day, I never texted her again even though the urge is still very present sometimes. Every time I want to, I just think about that it won't do nothing. I don't want to be together with a person who doesn't love me.
I did recently text her parents again though.
I basically lived with her family and I miss them too, a lot. Just thanked them for everything and kinda said goodbye. At least until I get over this, then we (me and her dad) might meet again since we share a hobby that we want to do together.We split because, long story short, she discovered that she doesn't love me anymore. No specific reason. At least she couldn't tell me one. She didn't want me to be completely gone, she wanted to be normal friends but not in a relationship. I told her that this is impossible for me, it would destroy me even more, seeing someone I love who doesn't love me back.
I’m so so sorry for this. It’s nice but probably also sad that you and her family are still close, especially her father. I don’t believe that one can just fall out of love to be honest.. how?
I feel like that’s normal with being with someone, especially for a long time. I think it’s all about reviving the relationship (doing things you used to do in the beginning, cute planned dates, etc) I know I shouldn’t be talking but I just never understood how someone can fall out of love, especially after so much time and love poured in. Why? :(and that’s how I felt remaining friends with him, I loved him and still do so much but I know I was nothing but a platonic bond to him after the breakup. -
I’m so so sorry for this. It’s nice but probably also sad that you and her family are still close, especially her father. I don’t believe that one can just fall out of love to be honest.. how?
I feel like that’s normal with being with someone, especially for a long time. I think it’s all about reviving the relationship (doing things you used to do in the beginning, cute planned dates, etc) I know I shouldn’t be talking but I just never understood how someone can fall out of love, especially after so much time and love poured in. Why? :(and that’s how I felt remaining friends with him, I loved him and still do so much but I know I was nothing but a platonic bond to him after the breakup.I wish I could tell you how that works... But apparently it does. There are probably reasons that she doesn't know herself. It also took her a while to figure out where the "wrong feeling" came from. It really sucked for me too, feeling that something is wrong it the relationship without having any idea why or what. Turns out it was the lack of love I received.
Reviving the relationship was also my idea as soon as I knew. But she did not want to. And I realized that if the other person isn't interested in saving it, you alone have no chance.Now I'm just afraid that I won't find someone that nice again. And if I ever do, when?
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I wish I could tell you how that works... But apparently it does. There are probably reasons that she doesn't know herself. It also took her a while to figure out where the "wrong feeling" came from. It really sucked for me too, feeling that something is wrong it the relationship without having any idea why or what. Turns out it was the lack of love I received.
Reviving the relationship was also my idea as soon as I knew. But she did not want to. And I realized that if the other person isn't interested in saving it, you alone have no chance.Now I'm just afraid that I won't find someone that nice again. And if I ever do, when?
I feel this. When me and him split I tried so hard for 2 months to try and fix things and try to get the relationship back but he said there was no hope and it crushed me. I spent every day of those two months crying and spiralling. And yep, I realized that too, I was wasting my time and effort because if they didn’t want to, then nothing will change
and that itself was such a hard pill to swallow. I know you’re afraid but you will either time, I sound hypocritical because I think the same too but I know it’s not true.. it took me 5 years after my last relationship to be able to say “I love you” to him and mean it. I never felt that way, hence why I’m CRUSHED right now. But I’m here if you want to message me and vent about anything you’re thinking of or want to get off of ur chest without judgement. -
I always suggest taking walks if the weather is nice. I recommend it to anyone. It's free, not time consuming, pretty much anyone can do it in some form.
Walking works because it's an action that doesn't require thought. You can take in your surroundings, and place the focus on that instead of yourself. It's the easiest way to get your mind off of something.
You can't just walk all the time, but if the pain comes up, just walk. Leave your phone if you can, too.
I feel like a the rhythm of walking helps to moderate my thinking too. I make better decisions when walking, I’m calmer, I work things out. I’ve made key life decisions on long walks, and my partner and I deliberately take walks to work out difficult stuff.
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I feel this. When me and him split I tried so hard for 2 months to try and fix things and try to get the relationship back but he said there was no hope and it crushed me. I spent every day of those two months crying and spiralling. And yep, I realized that too, I was wasting my time and effort because if they didn’t want to, then nothing will change
and that itself was such a hard pill to swallow. I know you’re afraid but you will either time, I sound hypocritical because I think the same too but I know it’s not true.. it took me 5 years after my last relationship to be able to say “I love you” to him and mean it. I never felt that way, hence why I’m CRUSHED right now. But I’m here if you want to message me and vent about anything you’re thinking of or want to get off of ur chest without judgement.Yeah exactly, it simply is the worst.
Yk, one the one side I know that I most likely will meet someone as nice or nicer again but at the same time I'm still afraid that I won't. It just sounds impossible, even though I know it's not. It's weird.
But thank you for that offer, seriously. Same goes for you too, of course. -
Yeah exactly, it simply is the worst.
Yk, one the one side I know that I most likely will meet someone as nice or nicer again but at the same time I'm still afraid that I won't. It just sounds impossible, even though I know it's not. It's weird.
But thank you for that offer, seriously. Same goes for you too, of course.You will and so will I, but we just won’t ever know how long it’ll take
I can’t imagine myself falling for another guy to be honest. Went out the other day for my friends bday and her bf brought his friend so I don’t third wheel and I t made me miss him 100x more. Also saw someone who resembled him and tried to not cry on the street, I can’t have ruined her bday. But damn it hurt like a bitch. -
I feel like a the rhythm of walking helps to moderate my thinking too. I make better decisions when walking, I’m calmer, I work things out. I’ve made key life decisions on long walks, and my partner and I deliberately take walks to work out difficult stuff.
Great recommendation.I feel like a the rhythm of walking helps to moderate my thinking too.
This is actual scientific fact. Walking is a great way to do bilateral stimulation which calms the body. It activated the vagus nerve and the and the parasympathetic nervous system. Not even counting the calming effect nature and being around a community does for you
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You will and so will I, but we just won’t ever know how long it’ll take
I can’t imagine myself falling for another guy to be honest. Went out the other day for my friends bday and her bf brought his friend so I don’t third wheel and I t made me miss him 100x more. Also saw someone who resembled him and tried to not cry on the street, I can’t have ruined her bday. But damn it hurt like a bitch.Yeah, I feel that. I guess we will see. Eventually. Now I think about how I discover these messages years in the future when everything has changed. That will be fun
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Yeah, I feel that. I guess we will see. Eventually. Now I think about how I discover these messages years in the future when everything has changed. That will be fun
I’m fighting crazy urges to not text him.. the urge to ask him if he’s satisfied with the closure or not is killing me. I wanna see his face again in PERSON so fucking bad, I want to hug him, I want to play with his hair, I want to kiss his face 🥺 I want to just be with him, in his presence, even if it’s quiet.
And yep, these messages will be very different then than now.
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Yeah, I feel that. I guess we will see. Eventually. Now I think about how I discover these messages years in the future when everything has changed. That will be fun
I did something horrible too the past couple days. I added like two people back who I used to game with all the time (one I had a sexual past with). My loneliness got to me. I regret doing this because I see no point of it. But now I feel guilt
one person added me on Snapchat and I asked who they were to also find out they were someone I did something with. I didn’t remove them…why? Why do I do dumb stuff when I’m lonely. I would not go see a guy or do anything as of now or anytime soon tbh, I am not ready, but why did I add these people… I feel like a horrible person. They all reached out and hoped I’m doing okay. 2 of them know I had to remove them because I knew it was the right thing to do. -
I always suggest taking walks if the weather is nice. I recommend it to anyone. It's free, not time consuming, pretty much anyone can do it in some form.
Walking works because it's an action that doesn't require thought. You can take in your surroundings, and place the focus on that instead of yourself. It's the easiest way to get your mind off of something.
You can't just walk all the time, but if the pain comes up, just walk. Leave your phone if you can, too.
I’m going to try to go out and get some sun today. I stayed in all day yesterday and today so far.. just been eating and wanting to sleep. I’m so tired. But I’m going to grab a book, some music, walk, and see what happens then.
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Have you considered a hasty and desperate rebound?
I just want him
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Just go out and fuck someone new on the rebound. There's a reason it's a practically-universal practice after a breakup. Otherwise you're just going to become a living instance of Mr Brightside
The thought of another man disgusts me.
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.wrote on last edited by [email protected]You sound very young so I'll answer as if I was talking to my younger self,who was in the same situation (multiple times.) The answer to your question is simply "time." How much time is in large part up to you. My advice is to cut contact with this person, or at the worst, keep contact extremely minimal (if possible.) Probably best to just forget about him, really. Next, take a few months and just chill. Play some video games or watch movies. Reach out to some friends you haven't seen in a while. Or reach out to friends you see a lot. Get exercise. Just kick back and kinda exist for a while. Then think about getting back into the dating game. Maybe see if there's someone single you see often that interests you. Or do phone app dating or whatever.
My point is you're literally going to be fine and there is no reason to believe otherwise. Later in life you literally will not give a single fucking shit about this person or this time in your life. It will be a distant memory. And it will also serve as a learning experience for you, to take to future relationships. Experience like this is HUGE. Most people date multiple people seriously before finding their spouse or long term partner. All those people dealt with the same thing you are.
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I’m fighting crazy urges to not text him.. the urge to ask him if he’s satisfied with the closure or not is killing me. I wanna see his face again in PERSON so fucking bad, I want to hug him, I want to play with his hair, I want to kiss his face 🥺 I want to just be with him, in his presence, even if it’s quiet.
And yep, these messages will be very different then than now.
Oh yeah, how much I can feel that urge... Yk when I texted with her, I did ask her if she is happier now and if she wants to text me and so on. The same that you want to ask really. You can imagine how she replied. I still miss her so much, especially during the evening and night when I'm not distracted by something else
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I did something horrible too the past couple days. I added like two people back who I used to game with all the time (one I had a sexual past with). My loneliness got to me. I regret doing this because I see no point of it. But now I feel guilt
one person added me on Snapchat and I asked who they were to also find out they were someone I did something with. I didn’t remove them…why? Why do I do dumb stuff when I’m lonely. I would not go see a guy or do anything as of now or anytime soon tbh, I am not ready, but why did I add these people… I feel like a horrible person. They all reached out and hoped I’m doing okay. 2 of them know I had to remove them because I knew it was the right thing to do.Wait why do you feel guilt? What was the intention?
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Oh yeah, how much I can feel that urge... Yk when I texted with her, I did ask her if she is happier now and if she wants to text me and so on. The same that you want to ask really. You can imagine how she replied. I still miss her so much, especially during the evening and night when I'm not distracted by something else
she said shes happier eh ;c i dont wanna know the answer i may get from him. i know hes hurting but fuck
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Wait why do you feel guilt? What was the intention?
i dont know the intention, i just missed my old friends. theyre online tho
