how can I stop spiralling about my breakup?
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Just go out and fuck someone new on the rebound. There's a reason it's a practically-universal practice after a breakup. Otherwise you're just going to become a living instance of Mr Brightside
The thought of another man disgusts me.
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.wrote on last edited by [email protected]You sound very young so I'll answer as if I was talking to my younger self,who was in the same situation (multiple times.) The answer to your question is simply "time." How much time is in large part up to you. My advice is to cut contact with this person, or at the worst, keep contact extremely minimal (if possible.) Probably best to just forget about him, really. Next, take a few months and just chill. Play some video games or watch movies. Reach out to some friends you haven't seen in a while. Or reach out to friends you see a lot. Get exercise. Just kick back and kinda exist for a while. Then think about getting back into the dating game. Maybe see if there's someone single you see often that interests you. Or do phone app dating or whatever.
My point is you're literally going to be fine and there is no reason to believe otherwise. Later in life you literally will not give a single fucking shit about this person or this time in your life. It will be a distant memory. And it will also serve as a learning experience for you, to take to future relationships. Experience like this is HUGE. Most people date multiple people seriously before finding their spouse or long term partner. All those people dealt with the same thing you are.
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I’m fighting crazy urges to not text him.. the urge to ask him if he’s satisfied with the closure or not is killing me. I wanna see his face again in PERSON so fucking bad, I want to hug him, I want to play with his hair, I want to kiss his face 🥺 I want to just be with him, in his presence, even if it’s quiet.
And yep, these messages will be very different then than now.
Oh yeah, how much I can feel that urge... Yk when I texted with her, I did ask her if she is happier now and if she wants to text me and so on. The same that you want to ask really. You can imagine how she replied. I still miss her so much, especially during the evening and night when I'm not distracted by something else
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I did something horrible too the past couple days. I added like two people back who I used to game with all the time (one I had a sexual past with). My loneliness got to me. I regret doing this because I see no point of it. But now I feel guilt
one person added me on Snapchat and I asked who they were to also find out they were someone I did something with. I didn’t remove them…why? Why do I do dumb stuff when I’m lonely. I would not go see a guy or do anything as of now or anytime soon tbh, I am not ready, but why did I add these people… I feel like a horrible person. They all reached out and hoped I’m doing okay. 2 of them know I had to remove them because I knew it was the right thing to do.Wait why do you feel guilt? What was the intention?
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Oh yeah, how much I can feel that urge... Yk when I texted with her, I did ask her if she is happier now and if she wants to text me and so on. The same that you want to ask really. You can imagine how she replied. I still miss her so much, especially during the evening and night when I'm not distracted by something else
she said shes happier eh ;c i dont wanna know the answer i may get from him. i know hes hurting but fuck
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Wait why do you feel guilt? What was the intention?
i dont know the intention, i just missed my old friends. theyre online tho
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.Give it time.
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Give it time.
the urge to text him… but i know there is no point.
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the urge to text him… but i know there is no point.
wrote on last edited by [email protected]Nope. There isn't.
I don't want give you a false sense of hope, but if they so happen to decide to text you first: it's okay to respond, but speak to them as if you're friends. They have to know that you're ready to move on. And then go from there. Who knows what could happen.
But you also have to prepare yourself for the possibility that you may never hear back from them again. And only time will help you come to terms with that very real possibility.
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she said shes happier eh ;c i dont wanna know the answer i may get from him. i know hes hurting but fuck
wrote on last edited by [email protected]Kinda, yeah. In a nice way but yeah.
Anyway, I need to go to bed now. The time where I miss her the most. Her not lying next to me is just a horrible feeling. But I think it helped me a little, talking with someone who goes through the same rn. You know that there always are people going through that, but at least I don't know anyone. Actually feeling that youre not alone is nice. So thank you for that.
We can do it. Even for me it's difficult to believe, but we will get over it. Eventually.On a completely unrelated note, I need to vent about something. I just need to tell someone what happened to me. I just returned from a long trip. I had my bicycle locked at the train station for 3 days. When I came back, my wheels were stolen. Whyyyy? I had to walk home now. And I need my bicycle tomorrow. I need it all the time. That's the first time that something was stolen from me. It feels so bad. Why do people do that. That made me lose all faith in society rn. Whyyyy
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.wrote on last edited by [email protected]I just dealing with something akin of that. I have her at my left right now choosing photos of a Paris trip I was not in. Want to tell me your story I tell you mine? Sometimes talking about it makes it heal at least a little.
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.wrote on last edited by [email protected]It feels awful to have someone completely change what they want out of life from under you. Know that he's probably been trending that way for a while, and it just took a while for him to bring it to words.
You're going to get angry with him soon, but what you're feeling right now is normal. You're dealing with grief, and there's stages. They're going to take months-years to work through. That's how this shit works.
There's no substitute for time.
Take how long you were together and roughly 1/3rd of that is your recovery time before you're going to have this as a distant, faded, annoying memory of a time before you were stronger and a more capable partner.
If you let yourself, you can use this as an opportunity to get stronger. I know it feels like the two of you were perfect for each other, and that you'll never find someone as special as him again, in all the ways that matter to you; and you're right, you won't, because you'll find someone that will be even more special and will really get you.
You just have to hang in there and give this some time to work through. Don't go rushing into another relationship imo, I've done that and it feels great in the moment, but all it does is delay your healing from this relationship even more. It will make your next breakup even worse, and then you're trapped in a cycle.
Take some time for yourself, give yourself a minimum of 6 months before you think about or start dating again. Nobody is emotionally ready for that out of the gate unless they're sociopaths.
You'll know when it's time. It'll feel right. I promise.
Until then, hang in there, and best of luck on the anger phase of this, that was a rough one for me and lasted longer than I care to admit before I learned to let it go.
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.Exist in and feel those emotions, and then let them go as much as you can. As others have said, time will heal this wound. Don't run into the arms of someone else or try to numb this pain; it's important you feel it. Rushing into another relationship will only bury this pain by putting you in an unhealthy situation; numbing it will only lead to bad decisions and possible substance abuse. Let yourself feel this way, as horrible as it feels, and understand that it won't be forever.
You will be okay, and to be honest you will probably be more than okay. In a period that seems impossibly long now but laughably short at the end of this, you will become a better, stronger, and healthier person with a greater capacity to love and the wisdom of who better to give that love to. It is difficult, but you will survive. And then you will thrive. Love yourself and ride this out. You got this.
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the urge to text him… but i know there is no point.
I pretend (in a non-grotesque sort of way) that the other person is "dead" to me and that I could "summon" them with a "seance" (text) but it'd be terribly unnatural and there'd be an awful price to pay.
Basically if I make my breakup Practical Magic, it helps somehow heh
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.Ditch everything and go protest in California for a week.
Guaranteed to refresh your mind. Tear gas is very exfoliating and you will get in some cardio.
Seriously, though, change where you are. Go on a little vacation, get away for a bit.
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Ditch everything and go protest in California for a week.
Guaranteed to refresh your mind. Tear gas is very exfoliating and you will get in some cardio.
Seriously, though, change where you are. Go on a little vacation, get away for a bit.
I wish I could but
- my parents wouldn’t let me
- I have school rn
- low funds
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Nope. There isn't.
I don't want give you a false sense of hope, but if they so happen to decide to text you first: it's okay to respond, but speak to them as if you're friends. They have to know that you're ready to move on. And then go from there. Who knows what could happen.
But you also have to prepare yourself for the possibility that you may never hear back from them again. And only time will help you come to terms with that very real possibility.
Is it bad that I would take him back if everything became okay? I just wish we could talk about everything in person. I never got to, when we met, we didn’t and I am so mad about that. He should’ve done it. But he didn’t. He broke up and didn’t talk through anything. I just want him back
but I know reality. What kills ne now is the idea that I feel like I am not worth fighting for -
Is it bad that I would take him back if everything became okay? I just wish we could talk about everything in person. I never got to, when we met, we didn’t and I am so mad about that. He should’ve done it. But he didn’t. He broke up and didn’t talk through anything. I just want him back
but I know reality. What kills ne now is the idea that I feel like I am not worth fighting forWhy, so you can go through it all again, in less time? Then repeat in less time?
You have to love you the way you want and deserve to be loved.
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.I know this isn't super helpful right now but hear me out.
This has been many many years ago but I went through a separation for over a year, got back together, and then eventually divorced. Swore I would never put my kid through what I went through as a kid but ended up doing it anyway. Absolute worst pain I’d ever felt at the time. Lost my house, went without a car for a while. Had to move back in with my mom. Pain eventually started to subside. Met another wonderful woman. Eventually got married again. My life is way better now than what I would have been had I stayed married to my now ex. What was absolutely the most horrible thing I’d ever felt, barely even registers now.
Eventually the pain will go away. But as a therapist once told me, the only way to get over the pain is to go through it. In 20 years, you’ll barely remember it.
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Why, so you can go through it all again, in less time? Then repeat in less time?
You have to love you the way you want and deserve to be loved.
Idk I believe people can change
I know it probably won’t ever happen tbh. But it’s the fantasy in my head.
