how can I stop spiralling about my breakup?
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.wrote on last edited by [email protected]The real answer here is "time". You're grieving a loss, and it takes time for your mind to process that. It mostly isn't a voluntary process, so the question isn't only "how do I stop spiraling," but also "how do I get myself through the time it takes to recover." A few suggestions:
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Sleep. As much as you can until you enjoy your time awake again. Time you spend asleep is time spent letting your subconscious sort out a changed situation. It's time spent healing.
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Fast. Fasting releases endorphins starting about day 3. A healthy adult can safely keep up a clear liquids fast for up to 30 days without medical supervision. Don't do this with just water - clear liquids (see-through juices and broths) will keep up your hydration and important nutrients. The hunger basically goes away after day 3. The endorphins help make the time bearable, and help show joy is still possible.
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Meditate. This will be a hard one, because for best results I'm not going to suggest guided meditation, but rather a mindfulness meditation practice. You can do this on your own, but a meditation group can help you get past some of the misconceptions most Westerners have about meditation (the goal is not to stop thoughts from coming up, realizing you've become distracted is success rather than a failure, etc.) If you're in college, there's very likely a group on campus that holds sessions at least weekly. If not, look for a Buddhist temple or Shambhala center in your area. Hindu Dhyana and Vipassana are similar. The group will probably meet weekly, but ideally you would make this a daily practice on your own.
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Distract. Whatever takes your attention off the pain is a good thing, even if it isn't as enjoyable right now as it normally is. Reading, TV, video games, volunteer work, hobbies, learning a new skill. As long as it keeps your attention on something other than the grief.
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Therapy. Again, if your in college, there may be short-term counseling available at no cost. In addition to a non-judgemental space to process out loud, many short-term therapy modalities offer tools for handling grief, sadness, and interrupting thought loops.
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.wrote on last edited by [email protected]I'm afraid you can't really just stop it immediately. It will get better with time though. In the meantime healthy distractions are probably your best shot. When I was in similar situation to yours I started spending pretty much any free time I had on two things: running and learning guitar. Half of the time I was doing it with tears in my eyes but it was still better than just getting lost in depressing thoughts. It took me like 3 months until the breakup wasn't dominating my thoughts everyday. It was hard AF but in this time I actually learned something, improved and rediscovered myself. Sport and music have become major parts of my life. Now, years later, I'm actually thankful for this breakup. I wouldn't be the person I am today if it didn't happen and I definitely prefer current myself to the past myself.
You just need to plow through the hard times. It WILL get better! I wish you all the best.
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No you meant it as in you get to cause drama and expect the man to chase you.
Toxic behaviour that shows he’s better off finding someone else.
Being emotionally mature is understanding the other party in a relationship has no obligation to deal with your shit.
If they’re the cause or intertwined with “my shit” then they should work through it with me. A relationship is about working together when a problem comes up. I don’t expect a man to chase me for my own issues, gross. I find that a red flag as well and I wouldn’t want to be with someone if that is how my mindset it
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I'm afraid you can't really just stop it immediately. It will get better with time though. In the meantime healthy distractions are probably your best shot. When I was in similar situation to yours I started spending pretty much any free time I had on two things: running and learning guitar. Half of the time I was doing it with tears in my eyes but it was still better than just getting lost in depressing thoughts. It took me like 3 months until the breakup wasn't dominating my thoughts everyday. It was hard AF but in this time I actually learned something, improved and rediscovered myself. Sport and music have become major parts of my life. Now, years later, I'm actually thankful for this breakup. I wouldn't be the person I am today if it didn't happen and I definitely prefer current myself to the past myself.
You just need to plow through the hard times. It WILL get better! I wish you all the best.
I have no motivation anymore for so much.. it’s diminishing. School is a burden to me now, gym I don’t even wanna go. I know I get my off days and some days I feel fine than others but it’s all hitting so hard right now. It all just feels so real (which it is) and it physically makes me start heaving. I used to be in a 3 year relationship before him and I know I can heal but this hurts so much and I only known him for like 6 months ish (end of November).. it hurts so bad. I miss him so fucking much. I just wish me and him can talk about it in person because last time we didn’t speak about our feelings we just cried and he said it’s over and cried more and than laughed it off for a bit and continued crying, we stayed friends but then I decided to stop talking because I felt undervalued and it just sucks so fucking much. His last text just confused me and there’s so much answers I want
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His feelings do not determine your worth.
Even if everyone in the world points at you and says "inadequate" it's possible that they're all wrong.
You're worth loving.
He missed out and I'm sorry
this make me cry, thank you. It’s been so hard to see things clearly. I keep asking myself if I’m really that hard to love. The main question I ask myself is “Am I really that easy to give up on?”.. I bent over backwards so much for people but I never receive it back. My heart is always shattered by the people I love the most. Regular friendships I had didn’t hurt when they decided to not speak or whatever, but the ones where I actually love the person deeply kills the fuck out of me. It it seems to always happen to me and it sucks because it takes so long for me to love someone on that level. So when it happens I just know it won’t happen for another while
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first - fuck this stupid gen z / millennial idea of a “body count”
it doesn’t matter. if it does matter to someone? they are trash and not worth your time.
this whole idea is rooted in incel/virgin men being jealous that you, as a woman, had more sex than they did; which is why they want a woman with zero experience. they figure the woman won’t k kw better sex and will happily settle.
(source: i’m a man and i know too many like this)
I know… the body count thing is dumb but if you read my other posts you’d know why it affects me now
I know it doesn’t matter but now I have trauma related to telling someone my bc lol. And I know, it’s always the guys who don’t get much play that I find are always asking the weirdest questions and asking me what type of guys I slept with and their size .. cuck behavior lol -
I have no motivation anymore for so much.. it’s diminishing. School is a burden to me now, gym I don’t even wanna go. I know I get my off days and some days I feel fine than others but it’s all hitting so hard right now. It all just feels so real (which it is) and it physically makes me start heaving. I used to be in a 3 year relationship before him and I know I can heal but this hurts so much and I only known him for like 6 months ish (end of November).. it hurts so bad. I miss him so fucking much. I just wish me and him can talk about it in person because last time we didn’t speak about our feelings we just cried and he said it’s over and cried more and than laughed it off for a bit and continued crying, we stayed friends but then I decided to stop talking because I felt undervalued and it just sucks so fucking much. His last text just confused me and there’s so much answers I want
It's like a week since you went no contact if I gather correctly. That's still very early. In my case, for instance, I barely left my bed for the first 2 weeks. All the other stuff came a bit later. I don't really remember how much exactly. So yeah, unfortunately the answer is still just time.
I might have another suggestion as well. For me journaling was kinda helpful. My head was full of alternative scenarios, questions to ask and things to say to my ex. Since I couldn't do that, writing it down cleared my head a little bit. I guess don't do that if it will make you dwell on the breakup even more. But if that's all you think about anyway, then there's probably nothing to lose here.
Sending virtual hugs your way. Be strong!
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It's like a week since you went no contact if I gather correctly. That's still very early. In my case, for instance, I barely left my bed for the first 2 weeks. All the other stuff came a bit later. I don't really remember how much exactly. So yeah, unfortunately the answer is still just time.
I might have another suggestion as well. For me journaling was kinda helpful. My head was full of alternative scenarios, questions to ask and things to say to my ex. Since I couldn't do that, writing it down cleared my head a little bit. I guess don't do that if it will make you dwell on the breakup even more. But if that's all you think about anyway, then there's probably nothing to lose here.
Sending virtual hugs your way. Be strong!
his message just confuses me and I can’t stop re-reading it. It’s been a few days - almost a week soon I can’t remember, I cleared the convo because I can’t look at it but it’s on my laptop still
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.Just remember that good relationships never end in breakups. So you’re mourning the idea of a successful relationship you thought you had or wanted to have (perfectly normal thing to grieve over!), but you can also celebrate that you’re now one major hurdle closer to the right relationship.
It’s a fresh start and now you’re armed with a whole lot more knowledge about what your boundaries should be, what to look for (or out for) next time.
Basically, the glass is half full! In fact, it’s more full than empty if you really take stock.
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Just remember that good relationships never end in breakups. So you’re mourning the idea of a successful relationship you thought you had or wanted to have (perfectly normal thing to grieve over!), but you can also celebrate that you’re now one major hurdle closer to the right relationship.
It’s a fresh start and now you’re armed with a whole lot more knowledge about what your boundaries should be, what to look for (or out for) next time.
Basically, the glass is half full! In fact, it’s more full than empty if you really take stock.
Just remember that good relationships never end in breakups.
lol what. I've had several relationships that were good, and then we broke up. We're still friends, but it became apparent that we were no longer good for each other as partners. People grow and change. That doesn't invalidate the time we spent together.
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.Hey, I'm going through something very similar rn. She broke up with me about 5 months ago and it still hurts so much. I can't stop thinking about her. You're not alone. I wish I had a cure, but just like you, I don't.
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Hey, I'm going through something very similar rn. She broke up with me about 5 months ago and it still hurts so much. I can't stop thinking about her. You're not alone. I wish I had a cure, but just like you, I don't.
How are you fighting the urges to text them? Do u mind me asking how you guys split?
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.I always suggest taking walks if the weather is nice. I recommend it to anyone. It's free, not time consuming, pretty much anyone can do it in some form.
Walking works because it's an action that doesn't require thought. You can take in your surroundings, and place the focus on that instead of yourself. It's the easiest way to get your mind off of something.
You can't just walk all the time, but if the pain comes up, just walk. Leave your phone if you can, too.
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How are you fighting the urges to text them? Do u mind me asking how you guys split?
Ugh good question. In the beginning I still texted her. I didn't want to but I was unable to resist the urge. I always challenged myself to not text her for as long as I could, usually a few days. About a month later I finally stopped to when she told me it'd be better for the both of us. And I already knew that she was right. To this day, I never texted her again even though the urge is still very present sometimes. Every time I want to, I just think about that it won't do nothing. I don't want to be together with a person who doesn't love me.
I did recently text her parents again though.
I basically lived with her family and I miss them too, a lot. Just thanked them for everything and kinda said goodbye. At least until I get over this, then we (me and her dad) might meet again since we share a hobby that we want to do together.We split because, long story short, she discovered that she doesn't love me anymore. No specific reason. At least she couldn't tell me one. She didn't want me to be completely gone, she wanted to be normal friends but not in a relationship. I told her that this is impossible for me, it would destroy me even more, seeing someone I love who doesn't love me back.
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Ugh good question. In the beginning I still texted her. I didn't want to but I was unable to resist the urge. I always challenged myself to not text her for as long as I could, usually a few days. About a month later I finally stopped to when she told me it'd be better for the both of us. And I already knew that she was right. To this day, I never texted her again even though the urge is still very present sometimes. Every time I want to, I just think about that it won't do nothing. I don't want to be together with a person who doesn't love me.
I did recently text her parents again though.
I basically lived with her family and I miss them too, a lot. Just thanked them for everything and kinda said goodbye. At least until I get over this, then we (me and her dad) might meet again since we share a hobby that we want to do together.We split because, long story short, she discovered that she doesn't love me anymore. No specific reason. At least she couldn't tell me one. She didn't want me to be completely gone, she wanted to be normal friends but not in a relationship. I told her that this is impossible for me, it would destroy me even more, seeing someone I love who doesn't love me back.
I’m so so sorry for this. It’s nice but probably also sad that you and her family are still close, especially her father. I don’t believe that one can just fall out of love to be honest.. how?
I feel like that’s normal with being with someone, especially for a long time. I think it’s all about reviving the relationship (doing things you used to do in the beginning, cute planned dates, etc) I know I shouldn’t be talking but I just never understood how someone can fall out of love, especially after so much time and love poured in. Why? :(and that’s how I felt remaining friends with him, I loved him and still do so much but I know I was nothing but a platonic bond to him after the breakup. -
I’m so so sorry for this. It’s nice but probably also sad that you and her family are still close, especially her father. I don’t believe that one can just fall out of love to be honest.. how?
I feel like that’s normal with being with someone, especially for a long time. I think it’s all about reviving the relationship (doing things you used to do in the beginning, cute planned dates, etc) I know I shouldn’t be talking but I just never understood how someone can fall out of love, especially after so much time and love poured in. Why? :(and that’s how I felt remaining friends with him, I loved him and still do so much but I know I was nothing but a platonic bond to him after the breakup.I wish I could tell you how that works... But apparently it does. There are probably reasons that she doesn't know herself. It also took her a while to figure out where the "wrong feeling" came from. It really sucked for me too, feeling that something is wrong it the relationship without having any idea why or what. Turns out it was the lack of love I received.
Reviving the relationship was also my idea as soon as I knew. But she did not want to. And I realized that if the other person isn't interested in saving it, you alone have no chance.Now I'm just afraid that I won't find someone that nice again. And if I ever do, when?
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I wish I could tell you how that works... But apparently it does. There are probably reasons that she doesn't know herself. It also took her a while to figure out where the "wrong feeling" came from. It really sucked for me too, feeling that something is wrong it the relationship without having any idea why or what. Turns out it was the lack of love I received.
Reviving the relationship was also my idea as soon as I knew. But she did not want to. And I realized that if the other person isn't interested in saving it, you alone have no chance.Now I'm just afraid that I won't find someone that nice again. And if I ever do, when?
I feel this. When me and him split I tried so hard for 2 months to try and fix things and try to get the relationship back but he said there was no hope and it crushed me. I spent every day of those two months crying and spiralling. And yep, I realized that too, I was wasting my time and effort because if they didn’t want to, then nothing will change
and that itself was such a hard pill to swallow. I know you’re afraid but you will either time, I sound hypocritical because I think the same too but I know it’s not true.. it took me 5 years after my last relationship to be able to say “I love you” to him and mean it. I never felt that way, hence why I’m CRUSHED right now. But I’m here if you want to message me and vent about anything you’re thinking of or want to get off of ur chest without judgement. -
I always suggest taking walks if the weather is nice. I recommend it to anyone. It's free, not time consuming, pretty much anyone can do it in some form.
Walking works because it's an action that doesn't require thought. You can take in your surroundings, and place the focus on that instead of yourself. It's the easiest way to get your mind off of something.
You can't just walk all the time, but if the pain comes up, just walk. Leave your phone if you can, too.
I feel like a the rhythm of walking helps to moderate my thinking too. I make better decisions when walking, I’m calmer, I work things out. I’ve made key life decisions on long walks, and my partner and I deliberately take walks to work out difficult stuff.
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I feel this. When me and him split I tried so hard for 2 months to try and fix things and try to get the relationship back but he said there was no hope and it crushed me. I spent every day of those two months crying and spiralling. And yep, I realized that too, I was wasting my time and effort because if they didn’t want to, then nothing will change
and that itself was such a hard pill to swallow. I know you’re afraid but you will either time, I sound hypocritical because I think the same too but I know it’s not true.. it took me 5 years after my last relationship to be able to say “I love you” to him and mean it. I never felt that way, hence why I’m CRUSHED right now. But I’m here if you want to message me and vent about anything you’re thinking of or want to get off of ur chest without judgement.Yeah exactly, it simply is the worst.
Yk, one the one side I know that I most likely will meet someone as nice or nicer again but at the same time I'm still afraid that I won't. It just sounds impossible, even though I know it's not. It's weird.
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Yeah exactly, it simply is the worst.
Yk, one the one side I know that I most likely will meet someone as nice or nicer again but at the same time I'm still afraid that I won't. It just sounds impossible, even though I know it's not. It's weird.
But thank you for that offer, seriously. Same goes for you too, of course.You will and so will I, but we just won’t ever know how long it’ll take
I can’t imagine myself falling for another guy to be honest. Went out the other day for my friends bday and her bf brought his friend so I don’t third wheel and I t made me miss him 100x more. Also saw someone who resembled him and tried to not cry on the street, I can’t have ruined her bday. But damn it hurt like a bitch.
