But ur not reading the part where I texted old men for money?
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But ur not reading the part where I texted old men for money? I am so mad at myself. I ruined him and us. I genuinely can’t stop crying. I’m trying to win him back. He doesn’t care about body count anymore. I never once asked that question to anyone in my life either because I don’t judge people on their past. He’s just not happy that I lied about them sending sexual stuff but I never wanted that. I told him about the most recent one but I never said the first guy sent stuff cuz I didn’t find it purposeful. I’m broken from it.
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But ur not reading the part where I texted old men for money? I am so mad at myself. I ruined him and us. I genuinely can’t stop crying. I’m trying to win him back. He doesn’t care about body count anymore. I never once asked that question to anyone in my life either because I don’t judge people on their past. He’s just not happy that I lied about them sending sexual stuff but I never wanted that. I told him about the most recent one but I never said the first guy sent stuff cuz I didn’t find it purposeful. I’m broken from it.
Ask him if he could trust you again if you deleted your tiktok and IG accounts. And then delete them.
Or if you don't wish to do that, and want to keep making money from followers, then your guy is saying that's his boundary to protect his heart.
You can't control what your followers will send to you. If he's not ok with that, then your choice seems to be him or the extra money, but not both. That sucks and it hurts, but it also means that having both was never really a possibility.
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Ask him if he could trust you again if you deleted your tiktok and IG accounts. And then delete them.
Or if you don't wish to do that, and want to keep making money from followers, then your guy is saying that's his boundary to protect his heart.
You can't control what your followers will send to you. If he's not ok with that, then your choice seems to be him or the extra money, but not both. That sucks and it hurts, but it also means that having both was never really a possibility.
I deleted my TikTok already without him asking and he said TikTok isn’t the problem. He’s upset that they sent sexual stuff back. I wasn’t expecting it. I don’t care for the money, I never knew how it would hurt him and I couldn’t care less for money, even if I had 2 cents in my account. I care about him a lot. He thinks I will unintentionally hurt him again.
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I deleted my TikTok already without him asking and he said TikTok isn’t the problem. He’s upset that they sent sexual stuff back. I wasn’t expecting it. I don’t care for the money, I never knew how it would hurt him and I couldn’t care less for money, even if I had 2 cents in my account. I care about him a lot. He thinks I will unintentionally hurt him again.
He's punishing you for things other people did. They sent things to you, that's not a choice you made, and you even blocked them after it happened. Instead of comforting you for being sent unwanted graphic sexual imagery, he is instead choosing to make it about himself and his feelings. Doesn't sound like a great guy to me.
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He's punishing you for things other people did. They sent things to you, that's not a choice you made, and you even blocked them after it happened. Instead of comforting you for being sent unwanted graphic sexual imagery, he is instead choosing to make it about himself and his feelings. Doesn't sound like a great guy to me.
The first guy I might have entertained back for money (he spoke German so I had to translate every sentence ) so I can’t even remember what I said but I did say I wanted the money now and we spent three days arguing about it and then I blocked. Then I told him haha the photos were fake u idiot and he said the same and I said idgaf about ur photos and blocked. My boyfriend is obviously upset about it. I never wanted any photos. I felt bad for the third time cuz I gave my Instagram to someone because they said they’d help with $ and asked for my Instagram and then told me to sent pics of me and I said it’s on my Instagram I’m not sending anything and then they sent a dick pic and said “like this” or something and I said ew and blocked.
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The first guy I might have entertained back for money (he spoke German so I had to translate every sentence ) so I can’t even remember what I said but I did say I wanted the money now and we spent three days arguing about it and then I blocked. Then I told him haha the photos were fake u idiot and he said the same and I said idgaf about ur photos and blocked. My boyfriend is obviously upset about it. I never wanted any photos. I felt bad for the third time cuz I gave my Instagram to someone because they said they’d help with $ and asked for my Instagram and then told me to sent pics of me and I said it’s on my Instagram I’m not sending anything and then they sent a dick pic and said “like this” or something and I said ew and blocked.
Once again, none of that is specifically your fault, and as I said in another comment, you would do well to come to terms with your own behavior and choose to either change it for yourself, or become comfortable with yourself.
Sex work is work. Sexting for money is a job. Just like being a Bikini Barista or a stripper, and so on. There isn't and should be no shame in it. If you are able to leverage your looks for income, you also deserve a partner who is comfortable with that. Your current "partner" is not.
I strongly advise you to become more comfortable with yourself and find someone who is similarly comfortable with you. It will hurt to lose this boy, but you will find more mature men out there who won't fall apart in the face of this.
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Once again, none of that is specifically your fault, and as I said in another comment, you would do well to come to terms with your own behavior and choose to either change it for yourself, or become comfortable with yourself.
Sex work is work. Sexting for money is a job. Just like being a Bikini Barista or a stripper, and so on. There isn't and should be no shame in it. If you are able to leverage your looks for income, you also deserve a partner who is comfortable with that. Your current "partner" is not.
I strongly advise you to become more comfortable with yourself and find someone who is similarly comfortable with you. It will hurt to lose this boy, but you will find more mature men out there who won't fall apart in the face of this.
Thanks, I understand this. I never sent anything of myself, so I saw it more as “help” or a “scam” as I was sending fake nudes of the internet. I know many people do this with their boyfriends to make money. He didn’t like it which I get because we have to respect each other’s boundaries and I don’t care about the money anymore. I don’t know how to win him back. What hurts me a lot is that we met up to talk about it, hugged in bed for a while, told him let’s talk and he didn’t want to but we had sex and cuddled and did everything all night and the next day before leaving is when he said it. I feel like this isn’t fair
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Thanks, I understand this. I never sent anything of myself, so I saw it more as “help” or a “scam” as I was sending fake nudes of the internet. I know many people do this with their boyfriends to make money. He didn’t like it which I get because we have to respect each other’s boundaries and I don’t care about the money anymore. I don’t know how to win him back. What hurts me a lot is that we met up to talk about it, hugged in bed for a while, told him let’s talk and he didn’t want to but we had sex and cuddled and did everything all night and the next day before leaving is when he said it. I feel like this isn’t fair
I feel like this isn’t fair
That's because it isn't. He still used you for sex even though he was "upset" about it. He got what he wanted out of the equation. Please understand he is not actually treating you well and you deserve better. He strongly reeks of a person who thinks women should be pure innocent flowers (a lie) while men should be able to rack up a body count without judgment. It's a twisted double standard. If he was actually upset about it, why did he stay with you all night, having sex and cuddling? Because he selfishly wanted to get something out of it, and then went on to punish you for your own choices. It is incredibly unfair to you. Please, please, please understand that hurt you feel is because he chose to hurt you not because you chose to hurt him.
You deserve so much better.
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I feel like this isn’t fair
That's because it isn't. He still used you for sex even though he was "upset" about it. He got what he wanted out of the equation. Please understand he is not actually treating you well and you deserve better. He strongly reeks of a person who thinks women should be pure innocent flowers (a lie) while men should be able to rack up a body count without judgment. It's a twisted double standard. If he was actually upset about it, why did he stay with you all night, having sex and cuddling? Because he selfishly wanted to get something out of it, and then went on to punish you for your own choices. It is incredibly unfair to you. Please, please, please understand that hurt you feel is because he chose to hurt you not because you chose to hurt him.
You deserve so much better.
I know. I feel like an idiot for having sex. Part of me felt like there was hope in the relationship. I was always used by men in the past. Had someone tell me I wasted three hours of their day (hanging out) cuz I didn’t suck their dick for three minutes when they dropped me off. It was disgusting. He knows of my
Past and I think it’s now killing me that we did all that stuff and then I felt like a shitty person the day after. I just told him that but I don’t want him to think I’m gaslighting him or anything -
I know. I feel like an idiot for having sex. Part of me felt like there was hope in the relationship. I was always used by men in the past. Had someone tell me I wasted three hours of their day (hanging out) cuz I didn’t suck their dick for three minutes when they dropped me off. It was disgusting. He knows of my
Past and I think it’s now killing me that we did all that stuff and then I felt like a shitty person the day after. I just told him that but I don’t want him to think I’m gaslighting him or anythingwrote on last edited by [email protected]Don't feel like an idiot. Just accept that it happened and try to use it as a learning experience. If he thinks you're gaslighting him, that's on him, not on you, you're just talking about how you've been made to feel.
As an old, lonely man, what I would give to have a woman who just wanted to spend three hours with me, hanging out. To know someone cared that I existed and chose to spend their time with me. Just to not be alone for a while, to have someone to talk to, to feel like I mattered to someone and that out of all the people on the planet, they chose to spend their time on me. That's a gift.
I promise, it gets easier as you get older, because the sex drive in men gets lower and they begin thinking with their brains instead of their dicks (not all of them, but some of them). Maybe try to work on having fun for yourself while you're still young and not worrying about what the dumb young men you encounter think of you? Be patient until you and the men you date are older when you can more easily find someone who has matured into understanding that you choosing to give them your time, effort, and compassion is far more valuable than sex.
