I do not believe that random internet strangers will be able to give you appropriate and constructive advice on this topic, no matter how well intentioned they might be.

[l0rdmathias@sh.itjust.works]

I do not believe that random internet strangers will be able to give you appropriate and constructive advice on this topic, no matter how well intentioned they might be. This requires a certified and trusted professional opinion. Knowing how volatile the internet can be, I strongly encourage you to seek help elsewhere if possible. At the very least, understand that we internet strangers are never who we claim to be, and 90% of us are bots anyways.