how can I stop spiralling about my breakup?
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.Exist in and feel those emotions, and then let them go as much as you can. As others have said, time will heal this wound. Don't run into the arms of someone else or try to numb this pain; it's important you feel it. Rushing into another relationship will only bury this pain by putting you in an unhealthy situation; numbing it will only lead to bad decisions and possible substance abuse. Let yourself feel this way, as horrible as it feels, and understand that it won't be forever.
You will be okay, and to be honest you will probably be more than okay. In a period that seems impossibly long now but laughably short at the end of this, you will become a better, stronger, and healthier person with a greater capacity to love and the wisdom of who better to give that love to. It is difficult, but you will survive. And then you will thrive. Love yourself and ride this out. You got this.
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the urge to text him… but i know there is no point.
I pretend (in a non-grotesque sort of way) that the other person is "dead" to me and that I could "summon" them with a "seance" (text) but it'd be terribly unnatural and there'd be an awful price to pay.
Basically if I make my breakup Practical Magic, it helps somehow heh
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.Ditch everything and go protest in California for a week.
Guaranteed to refresh your mind. Tear gas is very exfoliating and you will get in some cardio.
Seriously, though, change where you are. Go on a little vacation, get away for a bit.
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Ditch everything and go protest in California for a week.
Guaranteed to refresh your mind. Tear gas is very exfoliating and you will get in some cardio.
Seriously, though, change where you are. Go on a little vacation, get away for a bit.
I wish I could but
- my parents wouldn’t let me
- I have school rn
- low funds
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Nope. There isn't.
I don't want give you a false sense of hope, but if they so happen to decide to text you first: it's okay to respond, but speak to them as if you're friends. They have to know that you're ready to move on. And then go from there. Who knows what could happen.
But you also have to prepare yourself for the possibility that you may never hear back from them again. And only time will help you come to terms with that very real possibility.
Is it bad that I would take him back if everything became okay? I just wish we could talk about everything in person. I never got to, when we met, we didn’t and I am so mad about that. He should’ve done it. But he didn’t. He broke up and didn’t talk through anything. I just want him back
but I know reality. What kills ne now is the idea that I feel like I am not worth fighting for -
Is it bad that I would take him back if everything became okay? I just wish we could talk about everything in person. I never got to, when we met, we didn’t and I am so mad about that. He should’ve done it. But he didn’t. He broke up and didn’t talk through anything. I just want him back
but I know reality. What kills ne now is the idea that I feel like I am not worth fighting forWhy, so you can go through it all again, in less time? Then repeat in less time?
You have to love you the way you want and deserve to be loved.
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.I know this isn't super helpful right now but hear me out.
This has been many many years ago but I went through a separation for over a year, got back together, and then eventually divorced. Swore I would never put my kid through what I went through as a kid but ended up doing it anyway. Absolute worst pain I’d ever felt at the time. Lost my house, went without a car for a while. Had to move back in with my mom. Pain eventually started to subside. Met another wonderful woman. Eventually got married again. My life is way better now than what I would have been had I stayed married to my now ex. What was absolutely the most horrible thing I’d ever felt, barely even registers now.
Eventually the pain will go away. But as a therapist once told me, the only way to get over the pain is to go through it. In 20 years, you’ll barely remember it.
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Why, so you can go through it all again, in less time? Then repeat in less time?
You have to love you the way you want and deserve to be loved.
Idk I believe people can change
I know it probably won’t ever happen tbh. But it’s the fantasy in my head. -
Idk I believe people can change
I know it probably won’t ever happen tbh. But it’s the fantasy in my head.Why would they can treat you like crap and you take them back?
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The thought of another man disgusts me.
Backup advice is to get yourself a cat or two
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Backup advice is to get yourself a cat or two
Have one, he helps a lot🥹
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Have one, he helps a lot🥹
well, I'm all tapped out of advice. Maybe a second kitty?
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Why would they can treat you like crap and you take them back?
I know
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I pretend (in a non-grotesque sort of way) that the other person is "dead" to me and that I could "summon" them with a "seance" (text) but it'd be terribly unnatural and there'd be an awful price to pay.
Basically if I make my breakup Practical Magic, it helps somehow heh
Please, more details
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Exist in and feel those emotions, and then let them go as much as you can. As others have said, time will heal this wound. Don't run into the arms of someone else or try to numb this pain; it's important you feel it. Rushing into another relationship will only bury this pain by putting you in an unhealthy situation; numbing it will only lead to bad decisions and possible substance abuse. Let yourself feel this way, as horrible as it feels, and understand that it won't be forever.
You will be okay, and to be honest you will probably be more than okay. In a period that seems impossibly long now but laughably short at the end of this, you will become a better, stronger, and healthier person with a greater capacity to love and the wisdom of who better to give that love to. It is difficult, but you will survive. And then you will thrive. Love yourself and ride this out. You got this.
I wouldn’t rush into another relationship tbh.. I wouldn’t be able to.. would just hanging out with someone worsen things? I’m stressing because part of me still feels like I’m cheating and I’ve developed this guilty conscience after what happened between him and I. a guy wants to go on a walk with me in nature, I told him I’m going through this and he said take ur time and he gets it but part of me thinks maybe going out will take my mind off of it but another part of me thinks that maybe it will just make me miss him more.
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It feels awful to have someone completely change what they want out of life from under you. Know that he's probably been trending that way for a while, and it just took a while for him to bring it to words.
You're going to get angry with him soon, but what you're feeling right now is normal. You're dealing with grief, and there's stages. They're going to take months-years to work through. That's how this shit works.
There's no substitute for time.
Take how long you were together and roughly 1/3rd of that is your recovery time before you're going to have this as a distant, faded, annoying memory of a time before you were stronger and a more capable partner.
If you let yourself, you can use this as an opportunity to get stronger. I know it feels like the two of you were perfect for each other, and that you'll never find someone as special as him again, in all the ways that matter to you; and you're right, you won't, because you'll find someone that will be even more special and will really get you.
You just have to hang in there and give this some time to work through. Don't go rushing into another relationship imo, I've done that and it feels great in the moment, but all it does is delay your healing from this relationship even more. It will make your next breakup even worse, and then you're trapped in a cycle.
Take some time for yourself, give yourself a minimum of 6 months before you think about or start dating again. Nobody is emotionally ready for that out of the gate unless they're sociopaths.
You'll know when it's time. It'll feel right. I promise.
Until then, hang in there, and best of luck on the anger phase of this, that was a rough one for me and lasted longer than I care to admit before I learned to let it go.
I feel angry a bit now. I cried so much yesterday when I was out for my walk but now anger is here. Obviously I’m sad too but part of me is so mad that I spent 6 months now for something to not work or to be given up on so easily. It’s so upsetting. I hate that I did it but I reread me and his messages and seeing how much I tried to make things work, for two months, be trying to fix our relationship…pathetic. I got nothing bad. At one point he was just telling me that he felt like he was always telling me how special and beautiful I am and that I didn’t let it go through. What the fuck? But a few days ago he said he should’ve been more appreciative. He’s saying these now because he realizes now when we aren’t talking that I tried so hard and he didn’t care as much as I did.
That’s the part that hurts. The hardest pill to swallow for me is that. I have only known him since the end of November but I swear it feels like I’ve known him for years. This hurts me so much because I rarely feel like this with people. This urge inside me to text him is crazy. I hate that me and him didn’t talk about it in purpose, it makes my blood boil a little bit.
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Kinda, yeah. In a nice way but yeah.
Anyway, I need to go to bed now. The time where I miss her the most. Her not lying next to me is just a horrible feeling. But I think it helped me a little, talking with someone who goes through the same rn. You know that there always are people going through that, but at least I don't know anyone. Actually feeling that youre not alone is nice. So thank you for that.
We can do it. Even for me it's difficult to believe, but we will get over it. Eventually.On a completely unrelated note, I need to vent about something. I just need to tell someone what happened to me. I just returned from a long trip. I had my bicycle locked at the train station for 3 days. When I came back, my wheels were stolen. Whyyyy? I had to walk home now. And I need my bicycle tomorrow. I need it all the time. That's the first time that something was stolen from me. It feels so bad. Why do people do that. That made me lose all faith in society rn. Whyyyy
Yes! Vent vent vent! Vent to me, message me. I’m here. Whichever jackass took ur wheels will get karma. U know how I think of these situations… like “god let that happen because maybe if I had been able to ride my bike something bad could’ve happened”.. kind of like traffic too… god protecting us from a crash that could’ve happened.. but still I’d be mad. Are you able to get a rope or bigger lock and lock then around your wheels in the future. I’ve never heard of someone stealing bike tires, that’s so lame
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I know I keep posting over and over but I’m in so much pain and I have no one or nowhere to go to when I am sad. I’m trying to channel everything internally without being such a burden and annoyance to people. I keep asking myself “why didn’t he fight for me and his relationship?” “Why am I so easy to be given up on?” “Was I even special to him?” … I cannot stop crying. I feel hopeless right now. When we stopped talking for a couple days and I reached out for closure, he said not speaking for those three days makes him realize he should’ve been more appreciative of me and how hard I tried and all those things. But if he was saying those things then why not turn it around?
I sound like a hopeless romantic but I can’t wrap my head around anything anymore… the closure somehow made it worse I guess. I told him I forgive him for anything he thinks he did wrong. He appreciated that. I miss him so much. I miss our memories, I miss his face. Something deep down inside of me feels like I’m going to see his face again but I know that’s false reality. We never even got to talk to each other about these things in person. I just want to cry in his arms.hate to post a fb link, couldn't for the life of me get it to work otherwise
time will heal.
one day you will remember the good times instead of the bad.
that day will come.
meanwhile, best of luck
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hate to post a fb link, couldn't for the life of me get it to work otherwise
time will heal.
one day you will remember the good times instead of the bad.
that day will come.
meanwhile, best of luck
I know time will heal but fuck… that video is pretty emotional, wonder what she is/went through. i just hate how heavy my heart feels, i hate always being in pain and being sad. I just want it all to end.
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I just dealing with something akin of that. I have her at my left right now choosing photos of a Paris trip I was not in. Want to tell me your story I tell you mine? Sometimes talking about it makes it heal at least a little.
;/ im sorry to hear that. and yea, DM it! please.
