I had a neighbour who embalmed his own wife.
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I don't know if it's scary, but in the absolute core of my existence i just need my life to stop sooner rather than later.
I've always been a bit suicidal leaning but when i was stopped i never had the courage to try again.
Every single day my mind tells me "would've been better if you did, it's all a big shitshow anyway" it never misses a day. I keep telling myself to not listen to it but i do agree.
I had a certain circumstance a couple yeara ago where i was close to dieing and it brought me peace...i felt calm and became accepting of what was to come (despite the intense pain). Wife calles an ambulance which they refused to send as we were too calm for it to be believable, so we took a taxi and that's when they got to see the pain i was in and realized time was running out quick.
Bla bla bla etc etc, i got sent home a while later and the same pain returned...excruciating bone wrenching all encompassing pain and all my mind had to add was: "if this is real, just go to sleep and you won't have to wake up again".
And i did, despite this absolute tormenting pain i fell asleep so peacefully and convinced of it all ending...it was such a relief.
But i woke up after...shit.
That's the darkest corner of my existence.
That's a wild ride. Hopefully you're at least pain free now.
I don't love the idea of continuing on, but I'm not suicidal. Let's just say, if things were to end suddenly, I'm ok with that. I'll see you all later (or not, who knows?).
As long as my life isn't constant torture, I'm ok continuing on, as long as I'm able to help those that I care about. They're my reason.
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Wait a second people genuinely think magenta is pink?
Commonly it's thought of as between red and purple. I don't know where pink comes from.
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I do a band count before I start peeing into the toilet….
“A-one, a-two, a-one-two-three-four!” peeeeeeeeeeeee
I then usually start singing a tv show theme song like Happy Days as I keep the flow going. Disturbed yet?
I sing the alphabet in French.
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Clairvoyance runs in my family. Most specifically, my sister has predicted several deaths.
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I am in the same situation. "When I was a child I was the most unhinged asshole I know" is extremly common in this community and I have no clue why.
just a guess, but it could be because kids are dumb and we were all kids once trying to figure out the world with no experience. And then on top of that we tend to remember the cringe moments about ourselves even though those moments were likely an after thought to those around us.
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Hopefully you don't kill anybody else when it finally happens
You can sleep soundly, my driving skills and reflexes will continue being unreasonably good for another 2 or 3 decades at least, and I doubt I'll still be driving myself anywhere by that point
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Wrong I presume?
wrote on last edited by [email protected]Oh most definitely, ADHD+autism, in exchange for absurd skill acquisition and long-term info retention I have horrible short-term memory, intense executive dysfunction, depression, although that last one has been a lot better since I transitioned. Turns out one of the things that was wrong with my brain was an estrogen deficiency lol
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Oh most definitely, ADHD+autism, in exchange for absurd skill acquisition and long-term info retention I have horrible short-term memory, intense executive dysfunction, depression, although that last one has been a lot better since I transitioned. Turns out one of the things that was wrong with my brain was an estrogen deficiency lol
You forgot the grandiosity.
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You forgot the grandiosity.
Recognizing and honestly assessing your own strengths and weaknesses isn't "grandiosity", calm down
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Or at least, you think you do.
If I wasn't right about it I wouldn't have a flawless driving record
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I don't know. It's more like a time reference than a consequence of.
Gotcha, I am sorry to hear. Hopefully you find freedom and joy during the coming challenges
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given selokichtli already responded i'll chip in as well.
it's honestly quite hard to give an exact answer, but life has definitely not felt the same ever since the lockdowns hit.late 2019 to like 2023 and even early 2024 flew by very fast for me. i can't even really remember much from that period and i'm not sure whether it's a direct consequence of the above, or maybe it's from COVID brain fog (i'm not even sure if i had COVID in the first place)
in any case things have felt off since the lockdowns. not to mention how much the internet has changed ever since LLMs got rolled out.
ok, thank you for responding, my memories of 2020 are very fast too, I did not notice until now
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You can't just drop that with no details!
I was working in the crematory, and accidentally cut myself. I was rushing to get some ashes transferred to another urn, because the family was waiting up front. Jabbed myself in the thumb with the wire cutters that we use to get the zip ties off of the bags that hold the ashes inside the urn. Cleaned it up and put a Band-Aid on it. Few days later it still hurt like crazy. I saw when I looked at it that there is a little bit of pus coming out. I squeezed it a little and a little short of bone popped out. Felt a lot better once it fell out!
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You probably feel that way because you yourself are currently cheating.
I'm not afraid of getting caught for cheating because I'm not cheating. Unless I misread that and you did something else that you're afraid of getting caught for.
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You can sleep soundly, my driving skills and reflexes will continue being unreasonably good for another 2 or 3 decades at least, and I doubt I'll still be driving myself anywhere by that point
RemindMe! 30 years
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Commonly it's thought of as between red and purple. I don't know where pink comes from.
I assume it's because of "hot pink" which now I type it sounds like a euphanism.
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Ackshually.... Tooth isn't bone
Right. They're hairy and secrete milk. So, mammal.
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Clairvoyance runs in my family. Most specifically, my sister has predicted several deaths.
Accurately?
Great cover for a murderer.
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My understanding is that this is also the case (legally) in most of the US. Pedestrians have right of way.
People sure don't drive like it though. Too many motherfuckers doing 50 down the fire lane in front of some local shops.
Even when the pedestrian has an active do-not-cross signal?
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I intentionally make up horrors and monsters to lurk in the shadows or under my bed. Sometimes when I can't fall asleep, I stare at a corner of the room, imagining some unsettling creature that could be lurking there, staring back at me (if it has eyes at all). I imagine something reaching up to grab the leg I'm stick out over the edge.
But they can't actually get me. They're created, sustained and dispelled by my will. They may stare at me, reach for me, but they're powerless. When I'm done with them, I send them back to the half-existence in the collection of ideas I built them from.
It's a cruel power fantasy, to make up monsters incapable of understanding that they're the lesser horror between us, but it's fun.
It also seems to help me sleep, but that might just be the fact that focusing my brain on one thing quiets all the background noise.
youre fucked if a tulpa materializes!
